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observation de vous;

observation de moi
on isolé tiennent le premier rôle
vous ne savez pas qui vous êtes
j'ai vous ai toujours aimé
mais vous avez pris mon amour pour accordé
parole au revoir

the 4 hearts

an almost perfect lady.

August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
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July 2008
September 2008

had driving this morning. some old instructor making a hell lot of noise about the way i drive. just because why? i'm a LADY. sex discriminator. seriously made alot of criticisms about my changing lanes about blablablabla. i'm not the best driver, but i don't think i'm the worst either. i had so many other instructors before him and all of them were perfectly okay with the way i drove, the way i changed lanes and all. sure, i've my weak points but i learn and practise, get them correct and i'm settled. so ugh! give me a break ll you old man. dammit. ):


i need a break. but then again, i need to work. i want to work. yayaya. escape escape escape. whatever la. i need a break from myself. and for myself. so either jio me go bangkok or bali for a week long shopping or partying! either one. i agree with andrea. life for me, at this point of time. is to drink, slp, run, club, smoke, and it's a continuous vicious cycle.


time to wake up my idea. time to sit down and think, write, and stop lying to the self. start letting the heart talk and giving the mind a break. it's a play everyday when you dress up, smell good, look better. and then it's a rest everynight when you wipe off that fakeness. emotionally exhausting, psychologically screwed up.


someone messAged me last night about you. why still after 5 years, 5 fucking years, do you affect me so greatly. just the mention of your name and everything comes tumbling back. what do you think seeing you will do to me. this is crazy. only you can create chaos in My life. you've numbed the heart and turned it ice cold preventing anything else. a non-existence barrier created just for you, i've hidden all the emotions in your bOx. remember the huge box which contains all my memories all your memories. i can go on and on. and i don't want to stop. hey there friend from long ago. maybe you're the Sole reason causing me to continue living the lie.


060703


feel like running.

- everything's just temporary;
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